Moment by Moment

My life is different now than it was a month ago. It’s a small thing to say, but a large thing to wrap my mind around. I’ve had more than a few weeks to think through what it all will mean and somehow, my brain still has not caught up to reality.

Last week was a huge shift in what we thought things would be and what they actually are as my immediate family needed me a lot. We have a sickness in the house that and I’m doing all that I can to care for everyone without going down myself. Parents and caretakers know the struggle this is and it has taken every ounce of energy I have to keep everything going. In the small pockets of time I’ve found for myself, I’ve picked up my journal and played around with different spreads and fun things in there. It’s one of my very favorite grounding activities and one I’ll lean into more and more as this year unfurls before me.

As I continue to walk the line this coming week of taking care of my family and coordinating what everyone needs, I need to also give energy to this new job. These past few weeks have kind of been hard, all things considered, and while I’m making it through each day, I don’t want to let this next month pass me by. This month is one of those really beautiful, bittersweet transition periods of my life and I don’t want to let it go without honoring it and being present for myself and my emotions. My family needs me first and then I need me. Among the to-do list that keeps replenishing itself, there are school supplies to buy, backpacks and lunch bags to be cleaned up, and wardrobes and shoes to be looked at all before summer ends and school begins. I’m going to take this week moment by moment and little by little we will get where we need to be.

In case you haven’t been told today, you are more than enough.

With you in words, Nikole